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I'm trying to figure out how to spend a hundred dollars in a memorable way ie. not drinking for once. We spent Christmas eve surprise christmas carolling shaun kilroy's girlfriend and getting paid for it. Yay. Paying music type gigs. I now know five carols on the guitar. I shall make them metal one of these days. I like disposable income. Somebody help me dispose of it in creative ways.

Our band, Missionaries of the Air, is off to a good start. It's not metal at all since Jacob's a soulful southern gentleman so Southern gothic basically. It's a mix of 16 horsepower, soundgarden and the white stripes. How could it go wrong? Three original songs written and a stripped cover of a Nachtmystium song=EP. Need a bassist now but that aside, we might even be set to record in a couple months.

Christmas day was just as epic but it involved cleaning also. Ugh. And a lot of Bud. We are not classy folk. A very pretty girl's going to be staying with me for a bit in January. My heart just melts for pretty punk girls. We've cared about each other for a very long time but she always had the pesky boyfriend so I never figured this would come to pass. Sooo psyched. I've been grinning about this since I heard. Totally whipped me out of my depressive shell. Unexpected but awesome. So many years in between. Really, all I want is to be that Warren Zevon song. Keep me in your heart for awhile. I want to leave behind a trail of beautiful memories if possible, to be thought of fondly. It's not a hell of a lot to ask.

When you get up in the morning and you see that crazy sun
Keep me in your heart for while




Now, on to business. I've got two incomplete grades to finish work for and an afterschool creative writing program to run starting February so there's much work to be done before I go to South Africa for the World Cup!!! Carsten and I, possibly Lynda (pretty punker) and one of Carsten's friends + Kevin Kilroy=epic funtimez. My dad has a timeshare there. Who knew? I didn't. But fuck yeah.

Still got to figure out what I'm going to do with Jessi. It's such a sad situation. In a way, I guess I do love her but now, it's not a desiring sort of love, but more of a wanting to keep safe and away from the world sort of love. I want her to be less lost and capable of a future. Why do I like the hopeless cases? Perhaps it's that initial month where we barely interacted with the world outside that I miss. Everything was the color of summer. It's still gorgeous out but yeah, I feel older, less innocent, but still, I think I like where this is all going.